*deep sigh* it's deep coz i'm finally realizing after 20 years that i've been set apart for God for a reason... and this reality is daunting... however, i am thankful still because i am alive, giving and receiving love, in the freedom of Christ... oh, happy day indeed!!! i'm feeling a bit better now (thanks to 2 really great friends who listened to me and pushed me to do the right thing... you're my treasures)... but yes, i will have to see the doctor about this lump on my knee... it's quite OK, but nevertheless, i will go... i've had a good rest... time to be productive and exercise my God-given talents... band practice, prayer meetings, workshops, etc... man, i'm ready to build!!!